WTF is healing?
I don’t know.
It’s been 5 years and it still hurts so fucking much when I look at pictures of you.
I always feel sad around this time of year.
Don’t say you’re sorry.
You don’t have to be sorry, just know that I get this way at the end of October.
I’ll probably look at pictures from years and years ago.
Watch videos.
Listen to your voice (god, please don’t ever let me forget that laugh).
And cry.
And stare into the distance for a few minutes…
And then get up.
And go on with my day.
Because that’s what you do.
That’s what you just have to do.
You can’t sit with grief forever.